Loss the most unbearable pain...

Where do I start... This blog reflects my thoughts my life and me.

I am finding it increasingly difficult to deal with what others see as a broken relationship...

Well it all started on a fine sunny day with just a hello over the phone. A sweet voice. I never believed it would haunt me for the rest of my life. But man has plans and God had his. And so it turned out to be the voice that would walk with me for ages to come.

We Came.. We Saw.. We got Conquered.. Thats precisely how I would explain it. One fine summer afternoon I had a face to the voice I heard and a so sweet a face it was. 
I could feel it in my fingers and i could feel it on my toes.. Love was all around us and so the feeling grew... Good friends to Lovers the transition happened even before we realized.

And thorough my thick and thin she stood by me. I could not have asked god for anything more in life.We shared our life's every moment.. every second. My life slowly revolved around her... I dint regret it too.. In fact i enjoyed every bit of it and I believe she did it too. How else could you explain a relationship that lasts for so long through so much pain and opposition.

So it was time for the Litmus test. We said our parents about us we went on a roller coaster ride. We went through every emotion with the family - Sadness, Anger,Despair,Hope,No Hope.. and what not. When everything was kind of finding place and we were in still waters came the greatest lighting strike.. It shattered our boat.. Hindered our travel.. And it all ended...

She ceased to LOVE me and I ceased to Exist.. and if i may quote my most favorite lines

"For She, as you know, was my angel.

Judge, O you gods, how dearly I lov'd her!
This was the most unkindest cut of all;
For when I felt her stab,
Ingratitude, more strong than traitors' arms,
Quite vanquish'd me: then burst my mighty
heart. . . ."

This was it... what took me 6 long years to build brick by brick was brought down in one blow.. So bad was the blow that there can be no rebuilding here..

She Left.. and with her she took away all that i possessed.. Happiness.. Joy.. Love... Luck... Feeling of being wanted.. and the fact that I was some one..

I am not sure if there is enough love left in me today.. Of one thing I am sure that i do not regret a single moment that has passed by.. 'Cos they are memories with which i know i can survive for aeons to come..

I might Have loved and Lost... But I am among the few to have had the privilege to Love and be Loved in return,...

There is not more i can ask for... For i am living with the loss... and So will be it...

P.S: For all my friends out there who will read this and get agitated.. angry and would wanna kill me.. Trust me.. This is me. This is th only way I have known to love.. With all my heart.. and this is the only way i can accept the loss.. With all my heart...